It’s easy to look at others in high positions and think to myself, “That should be me.”
But why should it be? Because my eldest brother is a top lawyer, the other a respected diplomat?
That was the fruit of their labour, and my station the fruit of mine. And here I recall my reality.
I was always behind in school and always disengaged. Yes, I got a degree, but it was a hard slog. I was never a scholar.
So no, what others have earned, I did not deserve. It shouldn’t and couldn’t have been me. That was their hard work and determination.
As for me? I’m still reaping the consequences of my actions and inaction in those formative years.
My brain is incompatible with that way of life. Maybe I could have been steered in a different direction more suited to my intellect.
I earned what I did deserve. Something different, unexpected. A kind of comfort. A simpler life.
Last modified: 22 September 2024
