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I think part of my problem is that I fall into a hole, forced to silently focus on tasks that are much beneath me.

Every now and then, I’m consulted by others on what is my expertise, and suddenly I remember my worth.

Listening to myself, I realise, actually, I do know my stuff, and others respect me for it.

There’s the value I bring to the table. It’s just unfortunate that I’m being forced to spend my days on menial technical tasks because there’s simply no one else to do them.

That’s the source of my demotivation. That’s why I fall so hard. Because I have so much to offer, only to end up performing the duties of a junior developer.

Could it be that I can’t focus because I’m just bored? That I’m simply not stimulated enough? That I just resent the perpetual refusal to fund roles seemingly forever mine?

Could be. Momentarily, this morning, I remembered my actual calling. But, alas, a day of dreary development now awaits me.