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Without a firm foundation, you’re cut adrift. I always feel I lack that foundation. Whether that’s true or not, I can’t really say.

If we were to draw our lives as a graph, sloping upwards to the right, I’d see the first few years of mine flatlining before finally beginning to rise only with a very shallow incline.

Is it possible to overcome those first early years characterised by developmental delays, or are you then forever behind the curve, never to catch up?

I spent years wondering why I was so inarticulate in social gatherings, frequently retreating back into silence. I have a better understanding of that today.

I feel weighed down by those early decades of life characterised by a disinterested engagement with the world. I don’t feel I put firm foundations down; it’s more like walking on shifting sands.