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I guess we could say the road to reach this juncture has been long.

In 2005, I quit my job in the capital to take up a role out in the sticks, which really appealed to me. In the job description, it had a very large web management component, which was right up my street.

I made a lot of that in my application and at interview, drawing on my masters degree. I thought, when I was offered the job, that I was on the verge of getting my life back on track, finally merging back into digital publishing.

Only, on my first day in post, I sat beside my new line manager and watched as he crossed out every single aspect of the job description that had appealed to me. “Sorry, that’s no longer part of the role,” he’d say, as he drew a line through each bullet point in biro.

Apparently, in the weeks between getting the offer and me taking up post, there had been great tumult in the office, as the person already responsible for web rightly pointed out that my role would render hers redundant.

That morning, discovering that I was basically destined to be a PA, I should have told them to stuff it, and gone back to my old job. But I didn’t. I just did my time, convincing myself that being close to our new home and avoiding the commute back into London more than compensated for the dreary work.

Eventually, some three years later, I was able to transition into a related field, starting right at the bottom in web development. Over the past fifteen years, I have slowly worked my way up the ladder on the technical side, though always playing second fiddle to each content owner to come and go.

Nearly a decade ago, I wrote a strategy for web, hoping to move things along, but just watched as others did their best to kill it off. So many times have I been on the cusp of realising my vision, only for it to be undermined. Yes, the road has been very long to this juncture.

What happens next, only God knows. It never pays to be overly optimistic, my patience forever tested. The best I can do is try my very best, and leave the rest to the Creator and Sustainer of all things. If it’s meant for me, all good. If not, all good. God knows best.