Last night I had a major meltdown. The trigger was relatively minor, but I blew my top. The morning-after is worse than a hangover. In truth, I’ve probably been carrying anxiety around with me for a year or more.
Perhaps I misdiagnosed it as some other spiritual ailment: an agitation of the heart. Perhaps the diagnosis was correct, contributing to heightened unrest.
I’ve had physical symptoms for months, though yesterday was a day I felt calm and relaxed for the first time in ages. I didn’t take my work too seriously. I did as much as I was able to, but clocked off on time. Alhamdulilah, I thought, reprieve.
Then 🤯 BOOM!
This morning regrets and a flood of tears. Now only the radiation cloud hangs over me, lingering all around. Perhaps the winds will blow it on, and soon I will return to something resembling normal.
Look after your soul. Some good advice here.
Last modified: 9 November 2021
