I lied about what I believe in
Because I was bored of agreeing with everything she said.
I said I didn’t believe in marriage. I said it was dead.
I lied because I was bored of looking like a follower,
I was bored of looking like I was doing everything to please her.
I made a statement, but it wasn’t one of mine.
I suppose that makes two of us; we both told lies.
I made a loud statement
Because I wanted them to turn to me,
Something I had no opinion of. Something I couldn’t see.
I was seeking attention, self-centred me.
I see them watching my great friend and I wish that he was me.
I argued with my friend, but really I agreed with him.
You’re selfish, man. You’re selfish. You’re selfish stupid Tim.
I wanted to be more than what they think of me.
I wanted to be more that what they see.
I wanted to show them my independence,
But with everything they said, I found myself,
Honestly, having to agree.
I felt like a copy cat. I felt like a nobody.
I wanted them to see that I am not what they think.
I tried. I lied. I failed. I am what they think.
You think I am nothing,
Therefore I am.